Well it seems the wait is over. The doctor called to give a report on my test results and what she said was triple negative. Is that some kind of Rock Band or Math Equation?
All I said was thanks but in my mind, I said “You can kiss my ….” Obviously they had no clue that I have an empire to run, kids to keep grounded and a husband to look after. I heard the words but I rejected what they meant and marked them return to sender.
The next words I heard were from my daughter who was saying something but all I heard were Charlie Brown sounds. I turned my head and cried. It was a short cry because I needed to figure out the next steps.
I recieved a call from the nurse navigator who sets up all the appointments which are many- surgeon, breast MRI, oncologist, plastic surgeon, blood work, genetics testing, etc….The list seems to keep growing and through it all my Faith is growing.
Now how do I tell my family and friends. My husband knew without me uttering the words. You gotta love that we have that kind of connection. He fed off my energy and I felt him say “well let's kick it's….” My sisters were a different conversation. They were in shock. While one asked many questions the other remained silent while another begin asking about how I felt. My parents. I love them and like great parents, they wanted to take it all away. Next came some close friends and sorority sisters. The responses were different but I knew I had their support and prayers.
I realize that this pit stop in the road is because of a greater reason. I met with a homeopathic doctor today as I need to get these toxins out. I entered her store and she welcomed me and told me to never speak the “C” word again. The universe will give me what I request as the tongue is powerful. I left there even more prepared for the journey. She did tell me that the universe gave me the warning signs that I needed to take better care of myself and I chose to ignore it.
I share this journey with you in hopes that someone will read it and not feel sorry for me but that you take the time to honor your body. As moms, it always about everyone else. Please call the doctors, dentist, etc….
Please no worries, only prayers!!!